So It Goes

Tue, 26 May 2009 12:54:43 GMT

3,038/4,000 for tomorrow

Canadian Democracy Exam Friday
Political Philosophy Exam Saturday

= so sleepy

Becoming a Morning Person...

Thu, 21 May 2009 12:21:30 GMT

I'm trying to create some kind of routine for myself for a few reasons. First is to motivate me to survive the next nine days. I'm actually really scared for them. I have to finish three pages of an essay, then right a fifteen page essay and top that off with that lovely two exams icing. The second is that in the summer I want to have some semblance of structure in my life so that I don't get ansey. I tend to get anxious when I have too much time on my hands. My mind starts to wonder and worry and I just feel plain lazy! So I'm trying to wake up early now and get in a jog before I go to work. I've never jogged before in my life! Today was the first day and I came to the realization that I must must must buy a sports bra. Good thing to conclude! There is a delightful little park near me and the sun beams into my apartment in the morning. Both are excellent motivators.

Despite the crazy week or so left, I can't help but get excited about the summer an what it has in store.

Thu, 30 Apr 2009 08:00:41 GMT

It's 4am and I'm still packing. The mountain of stuff seems to never end. I'm considering a two hour nap before I face the rest. This is ridiculous I never thought I had THIS much stuff.

Mon, 27 Apr 2009 03:49:34 GMT

Happy things:

- I am moving into a fabulous apartment with a dandy friend in four days
- I visited Mike this weekend and it was fun and wonderful
- I have a full time job for the summer

Sad things:

- School till June 2nd

The ratio is looking pretty good :)

Win!

Fri, 20 Mar 2009 05:47:08 GMT

I have a downtown apartment for May and a job at a cafe!

WIN!

Wed, 21 Jan 2009 21:12:20 GMT

York is still on strike. Holy fucking lame.

The only good thing about it has been spending lots of extra time in Londontown with Mike. Other than that I really truly miss my education.

This part is for Erin Goody: I had a dream that I was at your house with Emma and Cole, but it was not your house. It was a huge beach house. Ms. Armitage was very drunk on the front porch and bad mouthing former PCVS students, she was apparently your parents' friend. You were telling everyone you were pregnant. Your room was yellow. WEIRD!

And this year was...

Mon, 05 Jan 2009 05:26:16 GMT

Thought I might as well

Type your cut contents herJANUARY 2008;
1. Who was your new years kiss?: Mike was my new years' kiss and will be my kiss again this year.
2. Did you have a new year's resolution this year?: I'm sure I did, but I don't believe New Years is the only time for resolutions
3. Does it snow where you live?: Loads.
4. Do you like hot chocolate?: Yes, but it gives me a tummy ache
5. Have you ever been to Times Square to watch the ball drop?: No, I think I would like to though.
6. Do you ski or snowboard?: I have a very hard time with ski lifts... so I tend to stay away from those sports

FEBRUARY 2008;
1. Who was your Valentine?: Mike, he's a wonderful Valentine
2. When you were little did you buy Valentine's for the whole class? Yes, I didn't like that some kids got Valentines and some kids didn't. I tried to write personal things on each one too!
3. Do you care if the groundhog sees its shadow or not?: No, but I like their little greyhound faces
4. What did you get for valentines?: A ticket to go see Romeo Dallaire. My boy knows me so well.

MARCH 2008;
1. Are you Irish?: Yes, I've got some Irish kicking around in there
2. Do you wear green every year on St. Patrick's Day?: Not everyone, but when I am doing something festive, but last St. Patrick's day I was at a Justice concert.
3. What did you do for St. Patty's Day in 2008?: I went to a Justice concert with Mike and James
4. Are you happy when winter is pretty much over?: Yeah, I get really annoyed with Winter by March.

April 2008;
1. Do you like the rain?: I like it when there is crazy lightening and thunder, makes everything more exciting
2. Did you play an April fool's joke on anyone this year?: I don't remember actually
3. Do you get tons of candy on Easter?: Sometimes, usually I just eat a lot of savory food
4. Do you celebrate 4/20?: If I'm with other people who are...
5. Do you "love" the month of April?: April is when exams are, but it is also when things get pretty

MAY 2008;
1. What is your favorite flower?: Daisies, simple and beautiful
2. Finish the phrase "April showers": keep me inside to study more
3. Do you celebrate May 24th: I may indulge in beerzorz
4. Is May anything special to you?: Um ... no I don't think so

JUNE 2008;
1. What did you do for Fathers Day?: Eh, father's day and I have issues
2. Did you do anything fun during this month?: I celebrated my one year anniversary with Mike on the 20th
3. Have a favorite baseball team?: um ... the jays?

JULY 2008;
1. What did you do on the 1st of July?: I... I can't remember... I think I may have been on the island and I got some yummy food with Mike at the Del Crary festival
2. Did you go to the fireworks?: Yes I believe so
3. Do you tan in the day? Accidentally as I walked around

AUGUST 2008;
1. Did you do anything special at the end of your summer?:I kind of had a bad end to the summer... but I made some really great friends
2. What was your favorite memory of summer?: My one year anniversary with Mike was amazing. Made a nice meal and went to St. Veronus. There was also the night where we rescued Segway the cat and had an amazing bonfire complete with Al's lo mein and burgers and pizza rolls.
3. Did you have a sunburn?: I do believe I got peely at some point
4. Did you go to the pool a lot?: I swam at Mike's cottage! He tried to get me to jump off the big rock... the big rock is high up so that didn't happen

SEPTEMBER 2008;
1. Do you like September?: I love it, the beginning was really brutal, but most of it was amazing!
2. Do you like fall better than summer?: It really depends, I like the weather better and I do love school, but there is something about the freedom of the summer that I can't help but miss
3. Anything special about September to you?: Many birthdays including mine!

OCTOBER 2008;
1. What was your last Halloween costume?: I had to create a last minute costume this year so I dressed up as a Young Republican. Slicked back my hair into a ponytail and made a couple pro--Republican buttons. Let's face it Republicans are scary and the children are our future.
2. What is your favorite candy?: I'm not a huge candy fan, but I love sour stuff and really really really dark chocolate
3. What is your favorite thing about this month?: I love Halloween and Thanksgiving gives me an excuse to see all my hometown friends

NOVEMBER 2008;
1. Whose house do you go to for Thanksgivings?: I spend Thanksgiving with my mom and Mike's mom and Mike's grandpa (ahem Americanized question)
2. What is your favorite thing about November?: How beautiful High Park looks when the leaves turn

DECEMBER 2008;
1. Do you celebrate Christmas?: Not religiously, more like in that 'everyone is happy and gets to spend lots of time together) way
3. Have you ever been kissed under the mistletoe?: Indeed and under random shiny objects masquerading as miseltoe
4. Get anything special last year?: Um last year I got an amazing lamp from Mike and a trip to BC from my mom.
5. What do you want this year?: I didn't know what I wanted, but I got an Ipod and Lewis Lapham's magazine, a blender and a juicer... twas awesome
Where did you begin 2008?: At Meaghan Culkeen's house

What was your status on Valentine's Day?: Happily in love

Did you have to go to the hospital?: Yes... I think it was 2008, may have been 2007... for a silly reason, but it was a Sunday, so doctor's offices were closed

Where did you go on vacation?: Mike's cottage and ahem.... nowhere really

What did you purchase that was over $500?: I paid rent... I don't spend that much on anything

Did you know anybody who got married?: That I did not

Did you move anywhere?: I moved to my apartment in High Park and in Peterborough for the summer

What sporting events did you attend?: I went to a couple Western basketball games with Mike and his roommate

What concerts/shows did you go to?: I don't know if I'm going to remember them all... Justice, Crystal Castles x2, The Von Bondies, The Walkmen, North by Northeast, Cut Copy, Stars and ahem... more that I can't remember

Describe your birthday: I went to London and Mike made me a fantastic dinner and we drank delicious wine on his fire escape. Then we went out to the Alex P. Keaton for a drink. Really relaxed, but very very happy making

What has been your favorite moment(s)?: I had one of the best nights ever at Nuit Blanche this year. Everyone was so happy and having so much fun and it seemed as though nothing could go wrong. The evening was also concluded by 6am beers and Thai food. Also I had a spectacular time this Christmas holiday!

Any new additions to your family?: Nope.

What was your best month?: October maybe... December was great too

What was your worst month?: August/beginning of September

What music will you remember 2008 by?: Cut Copy maybe...

Made new friends?: Many wonderful people

Favorite Night out?: Nuit Blanche covers that.... also the day before my birthday. I went to London spontaneously and Mike took me out for dinner and we went for drinks at midnight on my 19th. There are many others, but I've covered some of them already.

Overall, how would you rate this year?: Confusing, but then perfect other then the strike, I miss school

Other than home, where did you spend most of your time?: At Dreams of Beans, at school, Mike's home

Change your hairstyle?: Yes, I had a bob and then was growing it out, then had a bob now I'm growing it out

Do you have a New Year's resolution?: I want to start a savings account

Do anything embarrassing?: Yes... probably some I can't remember

Buy anything new from eBay?: I never have

Get married or divorced?: hehe never for either probably

Get arrested?: Nope, but I was there when someone else did

Be honest - did you watch American Idol: NO!

Did you get sick this year?: On and off. I had about three really horrible colds and had a hard time with my stomach in the summer

Been snowboarding?: HA! Me and sports don't get along

Are you happy to see 2008 go?: In a way, I think that it's going to be amazing

Been naughty or nice?: Mostly nice.... I like to think....

Mon, 15 Dec 2008 10:03:57 GMT

I can't sleep ... again

Garrrrr

Wed, 10 Dec 2008 19:55:16 GMT

Ted Rogers is dead, if only his evil evil corporation was dead too. Then if there is not a hell, one would be created just for that company, they are THAT evil.

Fri, 05 Dec 2008 23:51:35 GMT

Dear Peterboroughians,

I am in Peterborough because York is still on strike. Let me know what all of you people are up to.

Love.

Thu, 04 Dec 2008 05:31:30 GMT

Madison is reading 'Hopscotch'
She is sitting on Mike's futon
She is drinking a glass of wine
She is preparing for a sleepless night and a long day
She is wearing boxer shorts

Thu, 06 Nov 2008 05:49:59 GMT

Dear Friends,

York's CUPE 3903 is on strike. (please not for too long)
Obama is President. It was like the Leaf's won in downtown Toronto.
I just spent all day at the Drop Fees Student Day of Action March and sat in the middle of College and University.
I slept from 6:30pm-12:00am.

A little bit of an awesome/crazy week.

If the strike lasts till Friday and I am nearly certain it will be, I will be in Peterborough as of Friday evening. Hangouts?

-Madison

triple word score

Sat, 25 Oct 2008 03:22:54 GMT

This is going to be a busy-bee sort of weekend/week. Essay for Environmental Politics due on the 31st, essay for Social and Political Philosophy due on the 3rd and a couple presentations thrown into the mix. I'm trying to get everything done so I can see Mike next weekend AND see Crookers in London, which would be a most excellent combination.

My OSAP cheque finally came after they screwed up my banking information and sent my cheque to the wrong address (thanks a lot jerks). I really did let out a 'eeee!!!' when I saw it in the mail. It's exciting stuff paying off the phone bill and buying groceries.

I should be doing work right now, but instead I ate rice, veggies and tofu and thought about what I'm going to be for Halloween. Now I know, but I need an accessory that may require a bit of searching ... possibly begging. I need a bag of scrabble letters and someone willing to forfeit them to me. I will search high and low because if everyone is like me in regards to scrabble, they cherish their letters

Okay... essay time.... starting.... NOW!

Thu, 18 Sep 2008 01:15:53 GMT

Everything seems wonderful again. If I merely forgot about the fact that I am quite tired and have an excessive amount of reading to do I could just lounge around happily in the park, but unfortunately this is not quite the case. This evening, or what is left of it, and all tomorrow will be dedicated to work. My reward will be a visit from Mike and the Cut Copy concert.
I had a pretty excellent 19th birthday. I went to London, unexpectedly, on Thursday and spent Friday evening with a delicious home cooked dinner and two bottles of wine plus a Mike. When I made my first purchase at the LCBO the cashier told me how to make absinthe. Happy 19th to me!

oatmeal and other distractions

Wed, 10 Sep 2008 03:38:45 GMT

I am making oatmeal because oatmeal is comfort food.
I am wearing a hoodie because they are just plain comfortable.
I am reading Plato because I have to.
I am trying to avoid thinking about stuff.
I am trying to be academically driven to the point of ridiculousness.

Sun, 07 Sep 2008 13:55:39 GMT

it's a bad day.

Mon, 14 Jul 2008 17:54:46 GMT

It has been quite awhile since I posted anything and I feel that this is the right time. I don't really like posting entries when I don't feel like I have anything interesting to say, but today I feel quite content. This last month or so I've become aware that my overworrying and overanalyzing things is overall quite detrimental to my mental health and really isn't helpful to anyone. In fact I kind of think that it has gone too far in a couple incidents and problems that I thought were there were actually, well, not. I feel much better now though once I have calmed down and took another look at all the situations that have caused me near panic attacks and for the most part they really are okay, or in some cases fantastic. Honesty, at times when I look at the things that have been bothering me I find that they are actually amazingly good and I guess, like most people, when things get good you assume that there is something bad lurking nearby.
There are a few grievances of course, like the restaurant in Toronto that still hasn't given me my pay cheque from three months ago. I just gave them an angry phone call telling them that I will call the labor board. This isn't really unreasonable considering I have called them upwards of six times and given them my address twice. I am seriously displeased with them. As well, on a completely unrelated note, I am displeased that eggs give me a headache because I really like eggs.
I am also completely tired of the rain. It's nice for cozy evenings and cuddling inside, but when it happens every day almost it gets annoying. It was especially annoying when I was at Backmeadows and there was so much rain that that the music was canceled two bands before it was supposed to and the tent leaked and I was wearing wet socks... I hate wet socks. Overall it really did put a damper, excuse the pun, on the evening. My weekend was saved though by a nice evening with Mike last night, even if I did have to watch the worst movie ever, 'The Machine Girl'. I should have known better when I watched the trailor and her arm gets tempura'd. Crazy Japan. Nonetheless an evening of movie watching and cuddling with my boy is always pretty sweet.
Today I plan on running some errands, paying my rogers bill, trying to get my pay cheque from Teleperformance and checking out the sexy new counters and Dreams of Beans while filling my tummy with coffee. As well I should go to the gym and do some reading. I feel like I haven't been reading nearly enough.
I feel like I should be doing more stuff for myself, but I can't figure out for the life of me what they would be. I really have to work on that. At least I have the job at Dreams of Beans now so I don't seriously hate my job now. Although I will hate those 12hour shifts for awhile.
But for now, errands ahoy!
-Madison

Tue, 24 Jun 2008 18:05:24 GMT

I need huggles.
Today sucks.

Fri, 25 Apr 2008 19:14:05 GMT

Operation 'Get Madison Back to Peterborough' is a success. My mom is moving back to Peterborough, randomly, so I'll stay with her during the summer. Now All I need is that job thing. I quit my job here, but I still have to finish off the weekend. It is pretty brutal and I do nothing as a hostess except stare at the wall. It is dull dull dull and I check the clock every minute.

I got a haircut and I wanted to keep the length of my hair that was just above my shoulders, but she cut it so short... Essentially it looks like my hair last summer with the flaps, but shorter. I feel like I look like a boy and hate it mucho.

I want a job in Peterborough and my hair back. Only one of those is obtainable.

summer in peterborough?

Mon, 21 Apr 2008 18:56:13 GMT

I have a new goal it is the: Get Madison Back to Peterborough for the summer goal. I know I was all excited to live in Toronto, but in reality most of my university friends are gone for the summer and it really doesn't look like my new workmates are too keen on new, especially significantly younger, companions. So I need to get home! I'd still have my apartment in Toronto, but I could potentially be living at Jenn's house just pitching for heat and hydro which is roughly the same amount as what I would be paying for transit to and from work in Toronto. Not to mention going out in Toronto is never really cheap. The other option is that my mom wants to move back to Peterborough, so if she gets a job then I can live with her starting hopefully on May 1st and just couch hop for a month. It just makes more sense to be in Peterborough for the summer considering most of my friends and Mike are there. So now I need a job. Dreams of Beans potentially has hours for me and will tell me by the end of the week... other then that I'm not sure.

So yes... any advice comments etc are welcome to help get me back to Peterborough for the summer.

those golden oldies

Mon, 14 Apr 2008 01:26:32 GMT

I get nostalgic a lot... I looked through some pictures and perhaps that was a bad idea because I kind of started thinking about how last summer was my last summer in Peterborough. It was the most amazing summer and I just hope I can make the one in Toronto just as good.
So here's some oldies ( I have really puffy cheeks in the green shirt one because I had just gotten my wisdom teeth pulled out)

I miss my ladies and my gents.

Thu, 10 Apr 2008 04:01:09 GMT

Things that kind of sort of suck:
- Realizing that bugs in my apartment don't have a cool name like silverfish and are actually 'pill' bugs
- Hangovers
- Exams
- Falling asleep on a bus and waking up paranoid realizing there is a good chance you may have drooled on yourself
- Sleeping alone at night because a certain boy goes to Western

Things that are pretty much excellent:
- Four more days till my boy comes and visits!
- Spending a full week in my new apartment
- Getting a job at restaurants on Queen St West
- Having friends who come over equipped with vodka and beer and stay up with you till five in the morning just for chats
- Making my own food
- Summer!
- Walks to the subway stop when it is all sunny and pretty

...See overall things are a delight. Mostly I just am going all ADD and don't want to study anymore and I'm missing Mike like crazy so that puts a bit of a damper on things.

I'm 18, but bugs are still icky

Tue, 08 Apr 2008 07:37:00 GMT

The big downfall about my apartment is that it is in the basement. I have two pretty good sized windows for a basement apartment so there is always sun in the daytime beaming through, I don't even mind my own little staircase leading down from the patio or anything. The thing I do mind is that basements mean bugs. And bugs are and will forever be icky. Mostly there are just silverfish that sneak out of their lair at night to wander around and piss me off. I think they are planning an attack after I killed a bunch of them. There was a fat one, maybe it was their leader. Anyway, it is a minor detail, just a terribly annoying one and I feel bad for using up so much kleenex murdering them.

On the upside of things I am fully employed now at the two restaurants I was talking about in my last entry. This is one: www.czehoski.com and the other is called coca tapas. They are owned by the same person so I will work between the two. It's kind of cool because I'll be working a lot of jobs. They want me as a server/hostess part of the time and as prep kitchen and dishwashing the other part. So essentially I get to be the jack of all trades and do a bit of everything.

The bad this is all this moving excitement and jobbing has gotten me a little distracted from studying for my exams on Wednesday and Thursday. I think I'll be fine for International Development Studies, but Natural Science is a different story. Stupid mandatory classes of death.

Mike comes on Monday. This is too far away.

Sun, 06 Apr 2008 16:08:45 GMT

Job interview today at a restaurant at Queen St. West and Bathurst St. for a dishwasher.
I like kitchens. I could totally work in one.

... Maybe that's how I'll open up the interview.

Sun, 06 Apr 2008 02:00:44 GMT

Today blows.